I’m 36. My wife is older. It used to be that was enough. Historically, my wife breaking in every age for me and the fact that I am the youngest child of five have made it humanly impossible for me to feel old. But lately life has been conspiring against me to tip my world upside down and the impossible has become possible, I just feel old. Really old. And I feel like I am dumber than I used to be. I was reading through old blog posts on a blog that shall remain nameless and I was shocked at how witty and daring I used to be. When I stopped blogging there it was at least in part because I had out grown it, I had become more mature. Now I am worried that mature might mean old. Not only that, it seems like as I became mature, I became less witty, less funny and not near as bright. I look at some of those posts now and the idea of coming up with the ideas and typing them just makes me tired.
And it’s not just blog posts, its the videos I used to make, the fun I used to have, its the way I look at these young whippersnappers…I don’t really use that word, but I figured since I am getting old i might as well try it out…its the way these young wippersnappers can’t just watch TV like normal people, when it is on TV , but instead have to watch it online with Hulu and Boxxee and WebSter.com (the number one place online to watch reruns of TVs Webster from the 80′s by the way)… Its the way that with every year older the more fearful I become, of everything. And people are noticing.
I guess I can live with getting old, I just liked it better when I felt young and cool and smart. Perhaps it is just a part of being a church planter, spending time with all the aforementioned wippersnappers, but darn I just don’t like it. Alas though, getting old is a fact of life and one day even the wippersnappers will be whining about whatever the new thing-a-magigger is. So I will push on. And I will force myself to blog and try and remember that lost witty voice, because i can live with being old, but Lord save me from dumb, safe and civilized.
What scares me is that I’m S-E-V-E-R-A-L years younger and I feel like you’re describing me. ;-p
Dude…we have lived a lot. I think part of it is that both of us were in ministry so young. But man I will pray that God brings the energy to your soul…Cause we ain’t dead yet and we follow Jesus so we are too wild to be tamed.
This post is just a bunch of poop. Why?
Because you are NOT old. I, who am much older, am NOT old, either.
I refuse to be.
But if you are intent on believing you are old, here’s a preview of things to come: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6oHBG3ABUJU
PS. I am back to blogging – my daily Bible reading… 26 days and only 330 to go.
Ha
I hope you are right. I have had some lingering health issues these past months that probably contributed to these feelings… Returning to writting semi-regularly has helped me recover some of my mojo and the beauty is I no longer really care if anyone reads it.
Blogging your daily readings is a great idea.
Sorry you haven’t been well…
Have you watched that video? You’ll either laugh… or cry…!